Exactly a week ago today, I felt relieved, happy and excited. My heart was so ready to trust life when I was loading my car in that container in Hamburg.
2 days later, I was back in Istanbul. I was so close to home though, but apparently Turkey was strongly calling again.
However, I felt terrible the day after. I woke up crying with big tears rolling down my face for hours. I felt exhausted, anxious, lost, lonely and empty. Feeling such strong and disturbing emotions confused me so much. ‘Why am I feeling this way?’ (Big contradiction with this photo…)
I worked for so long and so hard on this project. And it’s been more than 2 months, I live in intensity and in the excitement of this dream coming true. But suddenly, I felt like everything stopped. I felt like I was losing the bearings it took me ages to build.
No transition and no wait are easy. And things and emotions we can’t control always happen for a reason. I think it’s time to spend time with who I am and to accept how I feel today. Ups and downs are part of the adventure (and life!). And it’s always constructive.
It’s been 5 days I enjoy this time to exercise (very much, it’s my medication!), to rest, to eat properly, to sleep peacefully and to catch-up with friends and family over the phone.
I’ll be arriving in Cape Town within 3 weeks and I need my soul to be and to feel re balanced before embracing Mama Africa again.
Thank you for the love.
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