Sorry for being so quiet when it comes to sharing the last part of my expedition. To be honest with you, I’m lost. I feel terribly lost. Although I just got to realise the biggest dream of my life and that I feel profoundly fulfilled today, it’s literally breaking my heart to go back. I just do not feel ready to go back to Europe.
It’s very hard to explain now, because I don’t have enough distance to put words to my intense emotions. But for sure I feel worried, sad, anxious, excited, and nostalgic.
It’s so easy for some to judge situations, especially when women get to achieve their own goals and marginal lifestyle, ALONE. It feels like they’re never legitimate or that they’re liars. Interesting.
I fought for this dream of mine to happen, at the age of 34 (more than 2 years ago). I quit my job, my activities, and I left my family, my friends, my life in Europe to drive to some fascinating regions of the world, and for only partner: my heart. And for unique GPS: my gut.
I managed to save money since the age of 15, since I spotted the fragility of life when I got to see my dad having a heart attack in front of my eyes. I knew I would have to work my ass off to help my mother and my three siblings, if the worst happens. Luckily, destiny decided to give me my dad back, but to challenge my family with harsh illnesses for years.
So I kept on working to pay for my studies, to work, to work, and to put strategies in place to transform my life one day.
I always wanted to be an explorer and I decided to collaborate with life instead of yelling at Her. And here I am, years later. Instead of buying an apartment or a house, I bought my first car: Rafiki. The first investment of my life that I will always keep with me.
Rafiki, my friend, is my today’s reward, the symbol of my compromises, and the biggest life proof of ‘a dream coming true’.
I spent 1.5 years driving across Africa where I felt alive and Home. Because Africa will always be the most extraordinary place to be who you truly are. Then, I shipped Rafiki to the Middle East, where I met the most fascinating cultures, and where I felt protected by the Universe.
Tomorrow is a big day: I re-enter Europe, my heart full, my hands shaking and my eyes wet.
If you can, travel, learn, assemble the puzzle of History by yourself, don’t let others pollute your mind, or destroy your dreams, what you fear are illusions. Go for it.
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